Jen, anytime. It sucks to even say this-but to have someone to go through this with feels comforting. Like I have a reason to be alive or something-to support you. I have really wanted to just die all weekend, not going to of course but just so depressed I didnt want to feel anything more.
My RE said that usually theres a chromosomal problem with the baby. Nothing could have been done, which sucks. I lost it-I was like WHY THE FK can babies be born weighing 1 pound to fking crackheads and mine couldnt even grow in my healthy uterus????? UGHHHH!!
My RE said nothing about testing the baby, however he agreed to do the blood tests on DH and I in 2 weeks, well he said 2 weeks after the D and C. He has always been proactive with me and he knows I worry about the fact I will be 37 in May and we have male factor to deal with and IVF is not an option on our salaries. Not to mention-imagine spending 10,000 and then losing another baby??? I could spend he 10 is I knew they would make it! So I guess we will have blood tests soon, which is a good idea but god forbid something is wrong, I dont think my DH can handle anything else.
I have to believe we will have our babies. I keep thinking next time I will have twins because this angel will come back to me, and YOU! Plus we were shocked it was only one this time-we both have always had some sneaking feeling we would have twins, just a weird feeling inside.
You will be ok, physically with the procedure. I read someone's blog saying when you want to cry-CRY. If you wanna scream-SCREAM. So when i lose it, I just do-I dont try to hide it, but I also dont have a DD to care for-just 2 big ole dogs, haha.
I got through the surgery by telling myself, this will help my uterus be healthy. I will heal and there will be a healthy home for a baby someday in there. I also begged the OB to be gentle and not hurt my cervix or uterus.
Also-if your OB practice has many Dr.'s. make sure you get one YOU WANT!!!! DO NOT TAKE JUST ANYONE_you get a choice and get one who is caring and will talk to you and get you through your surgery.
I am here, please tell me how tomorrow goes. Try and have another u/s before you proceed-I did the morning of the D&C and it made me have peace-I had to make sure there was no chance for the baby.
I am here for you, always!
__________________ Jen 37 DH 31 BFP 2/09 M/C 3/20/09 @ 6.5 wks BFP 7/1/09(twins) Missed M/C 8/3/09 @ 8.5 wks D and C 8/4/09 Positive for ATA and Rheumatoid factor Rx=Crinone, Lovenox and baby aspirin To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 0 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. |