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R0xyg4l · 03-24-2009, 01:27 AM

I thought I'd share my story first... I went to my first OB appt last Friday the 20th of March. I had expected a wonderful report and to my surprise while looking at the screen with my OB we find no "blink" as we called it. At the time I had no obvious signs of m/c. I was given the options of letting it happen naturally which I know can be very physically and emotionally taxing, taking pills which just didn't sound appealing or getting a D&C. I opted for a D&C since I just had one in October for a 16 wk pregnancy loss and I'm somewhat familiar with them. My D&C is scheduled for this Wednesday along with a repeat u/s for "peace of mind" as my MD put it. I started spotting today (Monday night). At this point I'm just praying my body holds out till Wednesday. It seems to me IMO that when you do it naturally sometimes it can take a bit longer for betas to go down, and I just think I wouldn't be able to handle the hemorrhaging and clots. I'd rather go asleep, wake up spotting and move along.

After this m/c I'm going to make my OB due repeat loss bloodwork. I know they generally do it after 2 m/c but I'm going to make sure she does it Wednesday. I have to know if something is wrong which is has to be. Neither one of my m/c were from progesterone deficiences or your classic m/c I suppose (what is classic anyways?). Each time with my m/c I have no clue till I get that u/s and find out. I'm really thinking it must be hypothyroidism, a blood deficiency or possibly autoimmune... it has to be something. All I know is I'm not giving up. This isn't my last stop on my TTC journey. I WILL have another baby one day... no matter what. Getting pregnant is half the battle, the other half is getting a healthy baby in your arms... the rest is easy.

I hope everyone else is doing well. I find music particularly comforting. I feel like I'm healing more this time than last time. Last time I had my D&C on October 31st and around Christmas into January I was a complete mess. I'm trying to let the emotions flow as the come.