When I read this I almost cried, because I believe the woman may be me.
I have always been a religious person, but never put my faith in God to steer my life. In the past few years, I have been afflicted with so many problems and traumas that sometimes I wonder if I am cursed.
3 years ago, my father was diagnosed with ALS (Lou Gherig's disease). As I watched him deteriorate, I, too, fell very ill. Two years ago, I became paralyzed from a freak lesion in my brain. I spent almost an entire year getting back to normal, and as soon as I did, my dad died.
Now I am facing infertility, and have been so frustrated and feeling sorry for myself. In the meantime, my father-in-law (who I have grown very close to) is dying of stomach cancer.
The fact that maybe Jesus allows us to suffer so we will come to Him has just hit me. Perhaps this is why I have to go through all of this. Now I realize I am not cursed.
I will try to put my faith in God. I suppose he will do for me what is best. |