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R0xyg4l · 03-25-2009, 06:31 PM

Jenn ~ I know how you feel. I felt very similiar to you this time but especially with my 16 wk loss. I told them I wanted the D&C ASAP. Luckily we found out on a Wednesday and my D&C was Friday that time around. I know this may sound crazy and maybe a bit demented but I kinda felt like my womb was a coffin. I wanted to the baby out ASAP... for that reason and being able to move on.

Also, I know how you feel about your DD. To me that was the absolutely worse. This time she wasn't so distraught but last time she was so attached that she just cried and cried. I felt so horrible telling her. You never know what a kid is thinking so we just continue to talk about it as much as we both can handle. But I too told her she'd be a big sister one day it'll just be a little bit. When is your DD's bday? My DD was 5, just turned six. I feel really guilty we waited so long to start TTC and she'll never have that closeness to a sibling. But at the same time I know she has always required a lot of attention and I'm glad we were able to give it to her.

Good luck tomorrow, I'll be thinking about you! With my D&C I was asleep one minute and awake the next. It really wasn't bad at all. I didn't even need anything for pain after. You'll be in my thoughts, I'm sure it will go smoothly.

Jen ~ With my last m/c I had to go to the radiology dept too. I sat there crying uncontrollably while everyone stared at me. It was a horrible experience. This time when my MD went to look at the baby initially we had talked about all the stuff I was doing to prevent another m/c from happening again, then as she started the u/s I heard a big *sigh*. I looked and I said "There's no blink is there?" She said "No I'm afraid not". So I essentially did the same thing you did for the pre D&C u/s. I had passed it all naturally so no D&C for me. I wanted to be as oblivious as possible about the down and dirty part of m/c. But I had to go through it. The MD said she was shocked my body started the process so early.

I understand how you're pissed. My babysitter is due a week after I was due with my 16 wk abortion. Though she's a good mom... she already has 3 kids. To me it's like what bad karma have I ever created to have to keep going through this? I've always tried to be the best person I could be. But instead I'm having to continue to face disappointment.

One thing after my last m/c I found out is A LOT of people that you may not even know about, your close friends, your mom, your aunt, etc.... a lot of them have had m/c. It shocks me at how common it is. And it shocks me at how common it is that people that seem a little less deserving of children always seem to have them (Lets just think OctoMom here...).

That sounds wicked painful what you experienced last night! For some reason the metaphor really spoke to me and I cringed for a minute. I wouldn't expect ovulation to be happening it's way too soon. It NEVER hurts to call and ask! Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts! I'm doing well!