I know exactly what you mean. I'm having the same problems. Finally made an appt with a psychiatrist and was able to get on some meds for bipolar. They gave me lamictal, still unsure if it's helping or not! Took myself off prozac a few months back after believing that it caused me to go on a manic destruction spree. Anyhow, I would def. see about getting some meds and also finding a good counselor to talk to. Just talking about it may ease some of your anguish, esp after going through deaths in the family and dealing with the info about your father. That would be hard on anyone and I think it's even harder for ppl like us who have depression/bipolar. I'm a mom too and I felt it just wasn't fair for my kids and hubby to have to constantly deal with my tirades and just lack of emotical stabililty. So I'm taking the one of many steps to get myself in check. I'm here if you need to talk
