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R0xyg4l · 04-01-2009, 12:32 AM

I was just thinking as well... for myself and every cyster who has ever had a m/c. I don't know if there will ever be that happy pregnant feeling. I mean I'll be ecstatic the next time that I get pregnant, I know it will happen again. But the fear of not making it to the end will always stay in my mind. I just don't know if being pregnant will ever be enjoyable. You know when most people think of you as being pregnant they think of it with a sense of permenance like in 9 mos you will be having a baby. Theres always going to be that uncertainty... that something could just go wrong at any possible time and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. I told my the gal the last time I was at the pedi with my DD for her recurrent sinus infections and allergy issues about how the MD would know that I had given birth and they told me what to do. Now everytime I bring my DD in (which I pray isn't as frequent as currently).. I know she's going to be expecting me to be pregnant... then you tell someone that you had a m/c and you get that sorta sad "I'm sorry" no one knows what to say. I'm sorry is better than nothing. But people just kinda don't want to talk about it, it seems. I think it's because a large amount of them can't imagine what it's like. Yeah if it happens once you find out a lot of people have had m/c. But when it happens twice they're really thinking you're screwed and feel bad for you. I guess I don't want pity... I want someone to talk to that understands. Maybe no one does that I know in RL. I just feel like this defected woman that can't carry a child to birth.