First I'd like to say that I am so sorry for your losses. I don't have any answers and am actually in a similar situation. I lost my first one in 11/08 at 10 weeks---the baby stopped developing at around 8 weeks but I didnt have any symptoms until 10 weeks. My most recent loss was 3/09 at 4-5 weeks--they called it a chemical pregnancy--and I am still having my beta levels checked while we wait for them to go down to zero (as of yesterday I was still at 17). My MD has elected to do some RPL testing but cannot start until my HCG levels are at zero. I am apprehensive about the testing, hoping we find out a reason but scared that something is wrong with me. This is just a difficult road to travel and I understand your feelings of sadness and defeat. I read the sucess stories and although they are positive and provide hope, they seem so far removed from me. It sometimes feels like it will just never happen for me.
I hope you find some answers; I hope we all find some answers! |