Your posts have all been very insightful, and in a way i feel grateful. (Please dont take this negatively - im really bad with words!) Some of your stories are so intense and personal, i really appreciate that you share them. Even though I havn't gone through the same things, or at least not to the same degree, its good to know that someone else has gotten through it - and through so much worse, at that!
ivetastedflight:
wow. good for you! (its so rare that people say that phrase, and actually mean it - isn't it?) And you're so right.. its not something that someone else can change for me. its me. and sometimes it seems like my brain creates obstacles just to make it harder for me to do the right thing. Luckily, my anger has never really been physical. aside from banging on something thats not working etc.. what worries me most is the bodily stress. you know that feeling... when you say something and its comes out faster than you can think it, and the seconds move by instantly, and you realize that your breathing is different, and you face is terrifying... and you can feel the stress. i worr y about that. that must be harful.. to my heart or my brain, or something. especially all the time. I've been thinking about meditating (oh. wow. ironnny... ) i don't know much about it, but it might be helpful... anyone tried it?
Corvidae:
Yea, the diet is something i need to get a bit stricter with. when it comes to weightloss, sometimes i cheat and replace healthy eating with moorrrreee excercise. and that doesn't do much if i cheated and ate pie thats full of sugar. I'm next in line in my family to become diabetic, so a while ago my doctor suggested that i look into following something close to the south beach becuase of its high veggie, low sugar approach, and its pretty convenient these days. i just wish healthy food was cheaper. all those veggies really add up, but then i guess so do hospital visits so i should go with the easier of the two!
thanks again ladies, you're all an inspiration! |