hhopkins7998

I have been suffering from depression for a while but it has not really gotten serious until now. I just lost my fifth baby, this time do to Ectopic pregnancy. I had to have surgery because it ruptured and i was bleeding internally. Since then my depression is getting worse and worse. I was good at hiding it but the past couple of weeks people are starting to notice. My boss is such a good friend. She even notices how i am not as "peppy" as i used to be. For the past week i have started crieing for no reason and its not really when i am thinking about the pregnancy. Sometimes it just happens out of the blue. I was just sitting here working a couple minutes ago and i just started crieing. I really think my depression is most likely caused by everything that has happened to be my whole life and i bottled it up for so long i just cant do it any more. another thing (i dont know if its related or not) i have been having flash backs of something my father did to me as a child. I dont know what could be bring this on. I know i am not really stressed. I was a llittle stressed out when i got pregnant but thats really been it. The main thing i really want to do is where do i go from here? I really want to get help because i am worried this might turn into something else. Do i need to go see a counselor? Bi-polar and depression run in both sides of my family. My mom has bi-polar disorder and my dad is manic-depressive. I know that we were going to try to get me tested for one of these when i was in high school but it never happened. I am just so worried because i dont feel as strong as i used to. the littlest things upset me or annoy me and it affects everyone i love. I am not sure what else to say i just need to know what to do. I dont know what kind of doctor to see or what my options are.