New Soulcyster with a story Hope this is appropriate to post here and I hope I can find people to talk to~!
It wasn't until just last year that I associated PCOS
with the symptoms I had since my early teen years, back then I was told I had "Hyperinsulinemia".
It wasn't until I had gotten treatment for a kidney stone that my urologist noticed the growths on my ovary and ask me to see a obgyn and she told me that I had PCOS, so I did research on it like most do.
I had really bad acne for several years at the beginning of high school I took acutaine and it finally started clearing up, nowadays I only have a few pimples to deal with sometimes.
I have delt with Hirutism and the embarrassment of having facial hair; it makes it hard to feel feminine when you have a bit of a "beard" that you have to shave everyday. (I tried laser treatments it was a waste of time and money and it hurt...) sigh
I also had the dark patches of skin not as bad now as they have been but noticeably enough. They might get dark again w/o medication I'm not sure.
I'm also insulin resistant.
I was also diagnosed with high blood pressure and was told it'd help all my problems if I loose some weight but I've struggled with this most of my life.
Right now I weight a horrible 290 pounds (I got down to 250 lbs. while away at college, but gained it back after having to come back home), I have always been bad with exercise I never enjoyed it growing up either. I am planning to go on a Low GI diet and try start walking a little and see how long I can keep it up.
I was on actos, birth control and blood pressure medicine for almost a year but right now I don't have medical insurance or the money to pay for medications out of pocket so I am hoping I can stave off problems for a bit trying to eat better and exercise (I eat lots of veggies, and mostly vegetarian)
I have a monthly period which is lucky I suppose, only problem is that I get heavy bleeding and bad cramps, but I suppose it's better then not at all (I probably don't ovulate though because of my weight at the moment.)
Besides all the downsides in my life I do have one thing to be happy about, last July I got married to my soul mate we had met a few years ago on an "MMORPG" Ragnarok Online (for those who don't know it's an online game.) Only problem though he lives in Holland and I live in the U.S., while I was living with him in Holland for a few months we had time to think it over that it'd be happier for both of us for him to immigrate and live with me here in the U.S so this plan is in the works, and even though we talk every day on Skype it is still lonely sometimes.
Anyways I came to this site to try and find other people like me who I can relate to, because it's frustrating having PCOS and most people don't understand what you have to go through, the struggle it can actually be just to live normally and I hope that here I can find the support and inspiration that might better enrich my life. |