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Originally Posted by lov4bl3  Knowing (alone) that you have PCOS is devastating. Not wanting to tell anyone, and dealing with it on your own is harder... The only person that knows about my PCOS (a cousin) doesnt really know how I feel. I know women with PCOS can have children, but I have tried and no doctor have been able to help. Am afraid if I go to a specialist, my job will find out about it and I dont want people feeling sorry for me. Every female in my family seems to be having a baby this year, and me... I am left behind with this secret. Whenever someone comes over to see me or I visit a family member and another brings their kids around, or cousin (who is pregnant) comes around, I get depressed all over again. I just feel like crying and dont want to talk to no one. I dont know how to act whenever my mom asks me if I will ever plan on having kids, or act around other pregnant women. I try to separate myself and dont really want anyone to know... Anyone else going through this? Any advice on how to be able to act around other pregnant females without feeling embarrased, let alone sad that you wish you were in their shoes??? |
You are not alone. I had a HUGE problem with the fact I thought I'd never have kids after I found out and had tried concieving for many years before that. My sister has a three year old and she called me and told me she was pregnant I was so happy for her, but yet I was so angry at the same time. It was really hard like you say to be around her (other pregnant people) knowing they had what I wanted so bad. The day she told everyone else at her college graduation party I knew when it was comming and I walked outside and just cried and avoided everyone else the rest of the night. But you know after she had the baby and I got to be with my niece I'm so greatful. I keep up hope because of her and if it never happens for me then I've got her (and an extra bonus...no poo diaper, whining...I'm the best Aunt Manissa). It's tough, but keep your head held high and your spirits bright. I completly believe in things happen for a reason and there's gotta be sliver lining in the end. I stumbled upon this website the other day at work and I think it's great. Heck I'd given up hope and settled on the fact that kids just weren't in the books for me, but then found that through the new preciption program I have through my place of work that they offer a "special" Fertility Managment Plan where they can offer certain fertility drugs at a lower price since insurance companies dont cover fertility anything. So just that shred of information has given me hope and I saw many things posted on this website of older women (i know 28 almost 29 isn't that old, but older than I'd like to having kids, and husband says he's half dead just because he'll be 33) being able to concieve dispite having PSCO becuase basically we have our eggs like stored up or something...YIPPE! So again keep your head up and cherish your friends having babies and your family members having babies because life is something we all should cherish.
