See, when my cousin (or anyone) come around with their kids, I play with them and I love being around them, its watching them go home and knowing that they are not mine that bothers me. Just the thought that I am having trouble but yet, she is on her third, it just bothers me inside. I feel useless, like I cant explain it but I wish I can take her 14 month old with me home. When I carry him I kiss him, I play with his hair, I watch him and I love doing it, but I also wish that when I go home, he comes with lol its sounds so bad... I know! But I cant control how I feel and know that I am not capable of committing a crime of kidnapping and know that I am not crazy, but the feeling of wanting to have what she has just tears me apart and when I go see her, I dont want to carry him. I just want to leave almost immediately as we got there...
Why do I also torment myself with reading about pregnancy online. I think I know everything about pregnancy that I need to know, but im not pregnant. Everyone keeps telling me what I great mother I will be and they keep making me feel even worse... What can I do to make myself feel better? Can anyone give me an advice on how to control/handle these situations?
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