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Originally Posted by Anonykat  Who are these people that say these things?? I keep hearing about it on this board, yet I can't imagine I actually know somebody that disgusting. It makes me queasy to think there are people like that.
God is not malevolent - He doesn't punish us like that. If her (il)logic were true, then how do you explain all the crack hoes out there who pop out kid after kid and continually neglect them, because they can't stop looking for that next hit?
I don't know that the hurt will ever completely go away. I have not miscarried, but I have friends who have, and even after having living children now, they still talk about the child they lost with great sadness. I hope and pray that the sting eases over time. I'm so sorry for your loss. |
You know what, it's a really messed up situation. This girl is my ex-boyfriend's wife. He and I dated for 3 years, 5 years ago. He and I are both over it; she's the only one that can't move on. She's stalking me on MySpace and stuff (I have a tracker) and one day there were some words exchanged. I can't seem to shake her no matter what I do or don't do.
I know that God wouldn't punish me like this. My ex-boyfriend and his family (and now his wife) are extremely religions - almost cult-like. MY God is loving, but they feel the need to live in fear. I thought about the crack whore thing too when she said that, but at that point I realized how ugly she was inside and decided not to respond. This was after blocking her on MySpace, when she "chased" me on Facebook...then messaged me from my ex-boyfriend's Facebook...then made another account to message me from there. Pretty psychotic stuff.
I hope the pain at least fades. I think I'm still hurting so much because I haven't given myself time to mourn. I keep having to put the emotions away for work, school, etc. I only get tiny chances to mourn and I never get everything out because it's on to something else that I have to put it away for. I don't think I'll ever move on, but I'd like to move forward.
And now I am truly desperate. After having that taste, I am doing everything I can to make it happen again. I am absolutely terrified of the idea of not getting pregnant again by the EDD. I think that day will mark the opening of the floodgates.