I sympathize with your situation, high school was awful! People can be very cruel and it's hard to try to rationalize bad behavior when it's pointed in your direction. (which can be a completely different situation all together when its not directed to you!) You're also very young, so its going to be difficult for people to empathize with you when they aren't experiencing it and they have so much more on their agenda... sad but true. It gets easier, and finding people that are walking in your shoes that you can vent to can really help. And instead of dwelling on the negative aspect of their behavior or your situation just worry about you for a little while. Find things you enjoy, volunteer work is an awesome idea because your odds of connecting with compassionate people are much higher then walking through your high school halls.
Start incorporating excercise into your daily routine, it'll make you feel better physically and emotionally. The weather is starting to warm up, go for a hike, go fishing, learn something new. There is so much that the world has to offer but its hard to start off and get established. But by starting out now you'll find that you'll be a more centered, happy you at the end of the day if your living for yourself and not how other people look at you.
Besides, as we all know, the people who look down on others are usually the most miserable ugly old people this world has to offer. So feel good about the fact that you can be like 60 and smokin hot... kinda like that wierd boflex commercial. hahaha |