carro

Hi ladies, can I have your advise please? This is very personal and sensitive issue. Im 31 this year and obviously with pcos i feel my clock ticking more than ever, have been with my partner 6yrs. I have been very open with partner about pcos from the outset and also about the fact that I cant leave it very late to start trying for a family. We agreed to start in April however my partner has now resigned from his work and so is in between jobs (in this market). As a result he is not ready. And I am devestated!
Of course I understand his position, but when will the time be right? I feel so resentful and I do not want to feel resentful towards him. I am so upset, so hurt and so very sad.
Also I feel that he is taking it very lightly the fact that we agreed on a time frame and now he wants to wait. He has never approached me about the fact that he is now not ready it is always been me having to bring the subject up. He expects me to just be fine and understanding which I can do but where is his compromise? His understanding of my (well our??) situation? I feel like I am the one doing all the compromising. I have been to endless docs etc to get my body ready for April when we were due to start and then its just like "oh well we cant now cus I dont have a job". I feel so let down. I know he thinks that I am over reacting and that makes me mad as well. I do not know how or if to move forward from here. If we are to set another time frame how do I know that the story wont repeat itself further down the line? am I waiting in vain? I am normally not an unreasonable person, very practical I just feel so devastated this time. Its not the issue of waiting so much more so the fact that he has refused to realise how much of a big deal this is for me.
Am I being selfish? Be honest with me ladies. I am going under here