Roxy, I am crying for you
I'm so sorry. I used to say that when someone would miscarry before but it was never so weighted. From one spirit mom to another, I am sorry for your losses.
Haven't another miscarriage is what I am most terrified of. The part of what you wrote that really got me was when you went for the ultrasound for your 2nd baby and said "there's no HB is there?" I think I would have died if I had gotten to the point of seeing the HB and finding out that there wasn't one.
Turns out I could have had an US...my doctor (and I) miscalculated the date of conception and I was actually pregnant a little bit longer than I thought. I thought I was miscarrying at two weeks but it looks like I was actually more like 5-6 weeks along. My doctor refused to do an US when I started bleeding because he swore we wouldn't be able to see anything.
And about my ex-boyfriend's wife...she is just an ugly person. She's incredibly phony by pretending to be this innocent, sweet person and she is so not. I didn't take what she said to heart - I know it isn't true and I know that I live my life as best as I can. This girl has never met me - she thinks she knows me by what my ex-boyfriend has said about me. People usually magnify things about their exes, depending on how things ended...which was really bad between him and me.
Now MY hubby's calling for dinner...
Thanks for your reply and here's hoping for the best for both of us.