 My Story- Need Some Encouragement!
Hi all,
I’m new to this site and new to PCOS in general. I’d like to share my story with all of you in hopes that you can provide me with some much needed support and encouragement.
I’m 26 years old and with no past pregnancies. My husband and I decided a few months ago to come off of BCP and begin trying for our first baby. It was not long before we realized my periods were extremely irregular. We were referred to a fertility specialist and I was diagnosed with PCOS March 3, 2009.
The doctor asked me to start Prometrium the same day to induce a period in March. He also started me on Metformin, 850mg twice a day. I began my MP on March 15. I saw the doctor again at the beginning of April and let him know I was tolerating the medicine well. He advised me to continue with my current protocol and gave me instructions to start Clomid in May. He did ask me to take an HPT before starting the Clomid “just in case.”
I took an HPT this week (4/23) and was ABSOLUTELY SHOCKED to find a BFP! I took another one and got another positive result. My DH and I were on cloud nine! We could hardly believe we were pregnant with just the Metformin, and on the first month taking it at that! I called the dr. immediately to get a blood test and tested with hcg of 155. The nurse asked me to come back in yesterday (Saturday 4/25) to take another blood test and ensure my hcg was increasing. She also called the same day to let us know the tests my husband took last week had GREAT results and everything was WAY above normal for him! Great news all around! She started me on a prenatal vitamin and progesterone suppositories twice a day immediately. She advised me to stay on the Metformin.
She called yesterday afternoon to let me know my hcg had fallen to 127 in under 48 hours and that I was miscarrying. Needless to say, I was crushed. It was very early on, but is still so hard. It has truly been an emotional roller coaster.
As I wait for my hcg levels to fall back down to 0 on their own and hopefully begin another cycle on May 15 where I will start Clomid on Day 3 (the nurse said I probably won’t have to have a D&C but that they will monitor my hcg levels weekly to ensure they’re decreasing), can anyone provide encouragement/support for similar situations you’ve been in? I will remain on the Metformin. Of course, all the reading I’m doing on the Internet is discouraging. I am scared I’ll never be able to conceive again and I’m even more scared I’ll never carry a baby to full term. I was pregnant for two days for the first time ever this week and I can’t tell you how wonderful it felt. I would just love that opportunity for a happy and healthy 9 months.
I know God’s timing is perfect and there is a reason for all this, but it’s so hard not to get discouraged.
Thanks for reading and listening everyone! I look forward to your advice and encouragement.
All the best to everyone with baby hopes, and my thoughts and prayers go out to you!!! |