I could have written that myself. Through the end of my first marriage and a couple of years after I topped the scale at 240 (I'm 5'3). It took about a year, but I made it down to 154 and I was sooooo happy. I then met my now husband and gained about 5 back. wasn't really concentrating on eating healthy. Just having fun. Then I quit smoking. Immediately I jumped right up to 188. Took 20 off before our wedding and was very happy at 168. Then we started TTC. I don't know if was the fertility drugs or what but I started gaining again. Then I had the m/c. well suffice to say I am now back up to 200 on the nose and am miserable about my weight and how I look. but now is not the time for me to do anything about it 'cause I'm now 4w3d pregnant. YAY!!! But, I still feel ugly. l too have hirsitism & wax brows, lip, chin, underarms, forearms, bikini, every 2-3 weeks, just to feel like a woman.
My DH, god bless his soul, loves me no matter what, but I have to love myself. Which I do, just not looking in the mirror.
Best of luck with the ovarian drilling. And know that you're not alone.
Amy
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Amy (36) Steve (33)
10/21/08 11w6d - m/c partial molar pregnancy, D&C 10/28/08
7/16/09 - measuring 1wk ahead, 150HB
Anatomy scan 8/13
IT'S A BOY!!! Dylan Reed Due 12/31/09
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