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firefighters wife · 04-27-2009, 02:41 PM

I have a similar issue. I'm actually engaged and the date is set. We're getting married in September. He knows that I'm bi. We've been together for a lil over 2 yrs now. And he also knows about my feelings for my best friend. But we were actually in a relationship b4. And now she's my maid-of-honor. So now I've really gotten myself in a pickle. I love Chris with all my heart. But I to feel that missing part. Me and her rarely talk now cuz of my feelings for her. My family doesnt know that I'm bi and its completely against my religion but I can't just turn it off. I don't miss the sexual part of our relationship as much as I miss her touch. She always held my hand and kissed the back of my hand for no reason at all. I miss the sincerity in her voice. I love her laugh! And her smile! And EVERYTHING about her! We split about 2 and a half years ago and I can't stop thinking about her. And Chris knows. He knows my feeliings for her are deep and forever. And he supports me. Have u ever watched "Imagine Me & You"? In the end of the movie, Hec tells his wife, Rachel, after he has figured out that she's in love with a woman, that what hurts is that she loves her more and he cant stand in the way. Or somethin like that. And I'm always scared that my feelings will get to be too much for Chris and he will leave. Even though he says that he would never do that. But then the whole religion issue comes n2 play and I have to just try to turn that part of me completely off.