Roxy - 1st, thanks for voting!
And, thanks about DD's name. It means Heavenly Flower (Leilani) from God (Grace), and it is Hawaiian. I always liked the name and thought I'd name my daughter that one day, and it just seemed to fit. And it is crazy how that happens! She found out that she is NOT pregnant (which is good for her health, as much as she wanted the baby), it was just leftover hCG and it was decreasing. After finding out that she was not, I found out that TWO MORE people are pregnant. In my original post, I said 10. Since then, it has gone to 16. I AM NOW ON XANAX because I was about to lose it. DH put it into perspective that it was becoming an obsession...all I talked about...and it was taking over my life. My brain needs a hiatus because I just could not focus on ANYTHING else. I know I'm still young, but ever since I was a little girl (you know, back when I thought kissing meant you'd get pregnant...and that it would be that easy LMAO!) I knew I wanted to be 23 when I had my first kid. I had a young mom (she had me at 20) and I wanted to be a young mom too. Things don't work out the way you plan...especially when your plans were made when you were 6.
Crock - GOOD LUCK with your 2WW! I am sending an insane amount of baby dust your way...you deserve it! Especially after all of that! I especially leveled with you when you wrote about yelling at God. It's so hard to not be angry with him and to realize that there is a plan, even if you don't kow it yet nor do you know the reasons.
Kwannabe - She is FARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR from a friend. It's a long story and it's not worth writing about, but she is no friend of mine. She is just an ugly person that thought she could get to me by saying that. It only made me pity her for being so ugly inside. Your mom's dream made me cry and laugh at the same time too! It was a good cry/laugh. I immediately pictured my Leilani running with them and causing trouble
They are probably best friends in Heaven.
I KNEW this was the place to let it all out. Thanks for all of your support, ladies. My favorite thing about this place is that I am never, ever alone.
