I was diagnosed with PCOS at 20. After 2 rounds of Clomid I had a beautiful baby girl. I figured it would be that easy the second time around.....boy was I wrong! I went through a year of treatments and finally turned to adoption. We adopted our second child two years ago and I truly believe that this was God's plan for my life. I didn't feel that during the year of treatments. I had my bible study groups praying that "this time it will work." Now looking back I feel kind of dumb that I was "bugging" God (and having other people bug Him) for something that was not His plan! I have given my fertility (or lack of, haha) to Him. I would love to have another baby growing inside of me.....but I know He has a WAY better plan than anything I could come up with!
Remember we are always learing and growing closer to God. It was in the past and if you asked God for His forgiveness then you have nothing to worry about! Remember He knows everything. I believe that knew you were going to have an abortion (because He already knows your story) and He will somehow use that in your life for his glory! I have never had an abortion so I am not much help but think of all the girls you could help or at least relate too! It has also made you into the person you are today
God loves you no matter what! Please don't be so hard on yourself!