I just found out on Wednesday that a good friend of mine from college hung himself ... I've known him since Fall of 1999 (my freshman year) and I had a huge crush on him at first (he looked like Christopher Reeve in Superman).
He told me he wasn't interested in me that way but he thought of me as one of his best friends.
Then on my birthday in 2007 he spent half the time on the phone with a girl he met at a club and gave me Spam instead of a dinner out (even though I had offered to treat). I couldn't understand why he was acting that way. I pulled away and still said hi if I saw him but didn't initiate hanging out so we hadn't since then.
According to a close friend of his (and friendly acquaintance of mine) he started dating someone (not sure whether or not it was the same girl from the club) who ended up moving in with him but still was gone for long periods of time and didn't always tell him where she went. He expressed concern to the mutual friend/acquaintance about it.. Soon he was obsessed with her and wouldn't talk about anything else besides her so the mutual friend/acquaintance pulled away as well.
Noone saw this coming - I sat staring at the obituary for 10 minutes in total shock. I even had a bad dream that I saw someone hanging themselves in my neighborhood. I almost started crying on the elliptical at the gym.
I haven't been able to sleep at night. I wonder if I could have done something to prevent it from happening. He was so smart, interesting, handsome and just a nice down to earth guy. I can't believe this happened! I keep thinking of his parents. What a loss
