I know that these posts are supposed to help me feel that I am not alone (because really, you have all just written parts of my life story) but I still hate the way I look and the way I feel. I feel like everywhere I go people are looking at me and judging me for the size that I am---I get those looks that say "I know that you are fat because you're lazy and spend the entire day on the couch eating ice cream" and there's nothing I can do or say to make strangers know that I have a medical condition and I actually don't spend the entire day on the couch. You know it must be bad when I freaking work at Lane Bryant and am STILL getting those looks from other women. This condition has made me not only hate my life...but also myself. I can't help but blame myself for the way that I look. |