It's so easy to blame ourselves - it can be like some kind of wish to have more control over the situation. Nothing you could have said or done could have made him take that action, nor could it have truly stopped him if he was set on doing it. Nothing you can say or do will bring him back.
But we can say for sure that your friendship made moments of his obviously difficult life alot better. And for that, you can feel good.
It's a hard thing to accept, though. And if you feel at any time that your thoughts about him or your grief get to be too much for you to handle or are getting in the way of you living your life - please talk to someone. A doctor, a friend or find a therapist.
Good luck. So sorry for your loss.
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~* Lauren Michelle *~
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Meds: Metformin, Spironolactone
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