Hi everyone,
Thank you so much for the support. It's been difficult but I am slowly pulling through. Right now I am just in disbelief that I will never see him again. I keep thinking of his voice saying "Hi Becca, it's Smiles" (his nickname that everyone called him).
At first I kept thinking of the viewing at the funeral (that I didn't go to because it was 8 hours away and I can't drive). I just can't believe that he is now buried.
I did have a bad dream this week that I was looking through pictures of the two of us and in the middle of my photo album I saw pictures of a woman who hanged herself - the pictures showed the hanging from all different angles. It was one of those very vivid dreams.
As soon as my printer is fixed (hopefully next week) I'm planning to write him a letter, fold it up, put it in a balloon and watch it float up to the sky. Maybe he will get it ... |