 I feel that way to!
I can lay in bed all day with maybe two to three hours of sleep. Sometimes during the weekend I don't even get out of bed. I've had crazy thoughts about killing myself and they were starting to get out of control so my doctor prescribed Wellbutrin and I started to see a psychologist once a week. Talking to the psychologist is helping at least I can cry in her office without anyone judging me (I think). The Wellbutrin still hasn't kicked in. It's a never ending battle and I'm emotionally drained. It also doesn't help that last year I gained about 40 pounds and I feel like a total heifer. That added to the feelings of worthlessness and ugliness, however sometimes I can't stop eating. I wonder how much of it is PCOS i.e. hormones and how much of it is me actually being crazy. It's hard to tell where one ends and the other begins.
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