Kats

Have PCOS and not on any medication,last check up was about 1 yr and 6 mths ago
#Hi everyone,JUST WANT TO SHARE WHATS GOING ON WITH ME,IF THIS SOUNDS FAMILIAR TO ANY of you and can give me some advise.
I lived in a really bad situation with a horrible landlady for about 10 months,3 months into the tenancy i relaised she was crazy,she accused me of many things and it came to the point that every week she would have something to bring up and upset my life.Soon i stsarted sleeping with my clothes hanger across my door because of being afraid of her coming in.
Just before January of this year,i started thinking about my past which is 6 years ago and i remember things that ic ant seem to let go of,Almost every day i remember something new and i worry over it for long periods of time.
Now i have a problem going out in public and socializing,taking phone calls,chating with people online etc out of fear that they may tell me something that i may try to forget thinking that i just made it up. Yes i make up things as well,like i would remember say in the past i went to this place and then i would add on to that, that i had an affair with x y or z. i know its not true and am aware of the thoughts when they occurr but sometimes i feel so weak i cant bare the thought and i break down and cry.
When i lie down to sleep at 4 30 every morning i am sleeping and suddenly i remember something,that upsets me so much that i have to wake up,when i try to sleep,thoughts or memories just fill my head and sleeping is impossible after 4 30 in the morning. i go to bed at 10.If anyone has any thoughts or questions.. i may remember what else to add...
Thanks