 SO insecure about this f-ing hair
hi ladies,
i just need to vent. i am so f-ing tired of this hair and feeling insecure and unfeminine. i have an absolutely amazing man in my life who is my best friend, my lover, my everything and yet i can't share all of me with him because i'm so insecure and too scared that he'll be turned off. oddly enough we have a great sex life but it's completely on MY terms....lights off, dark in the room, he can only touch me certain places (and NOT on my stomach or face or even upper thighs because of the hair issue). I hate being this way...and he's getting tired of it too. He thinks it's him that is the problem and that kills me. He thinks I don't love/trust him enough to let him touch me everywhere that he wants. I so wish I could just tell him, 'baby, it's not you it's all my insecurity cus I have a ****ing beard and mustache and sideburns and hairy belly'. I am so ****ing tired of this!!!! Sorry for all the cursing, it's just so exhausting ALWAYS worrying about it, ALWAYS wondering if someone is noticing those stray hairs on my face that day...or if his hands are wandering to somewhere he can feel the fuzziness/stubble. I am PRETTY PRETTY girl DAMNIT...a WOMAN....I HATE THIS HAIR and what it's doing to my life and my relationship!!!!
Last edited by indiancyster; 05-19-2009 at 12:45 PM.
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