sorry for the late reply, things have been pretty hectic around here and its the first time in a few days I've hopped onto the site. Let me start by saying I sincerely appreciate the encouraging words! You don't know how wonderful it was to open up the post and read such a wonderful heartfelt reply- it really made my day! It's been really hard trying to sort through all my emotions and coming to terms with everything that happened.
It just happened so fast I didn't really have time to process it, so I'm still sorting through the mess. I feel comforted by the fact that my prayer was heard and answered, it meant a great deal that such a wonderful man didn't have to suffer anymore. My whole family has worked for the railroad for generations, my grandfather included. (all the men have been engineers) The other night I was sitting on my couch and it was very late and all was silent, so I decided to say my prayers. In my head I had a conversation with God and said all I wanted to say to my grandfather. But at the very end of my prayers I heard a train whistle blow in the distance and I knew I had my sign that Gramp is still listening, just like he always was.
It's so hard and I still feel overwhelmed, but every time I say my prayers or get my little signs I feel like I'm one step closer. I'll continue to push through and seek God's help when I feel like I just can't go any further. I just want to say again thank you so much for the prayers, taking the time to reply and encouraging me to not give up faith, especially when I need it the most. God Bless! |