Sweetpeas

My name is Jenny and I am a 35 year old mom of one desperately trying for baby number two. My husband John and I have been together for eight years going on nine. Or first pregnancy came right up on us. It seems as though she was conceived as we were deciding to have a baby. So fast, we werent sure that it was the right time. Both feeling so overwhelmed at the whole new experience. But what a lovely one it was. We have been trying now for about a year and I am getting quite frustrated. John is not though, he seems to think that spending this alone time is enough and with another it will take time from our daughter whom is two years old. I am on the fence. Yes, she is young and the thought of the two being close in age is going to make a wonder of difference as they grow up. That is what I happen to think anyway. All this frustration of not becoming pregnant, 'right now', makes the other part of me think that I am nuts now that she is starting to become more independent, I about have fallen on my head to want another little one and start all over again. But I do not want to wait. I don't want too much time to come in between their ages and I kind of feel that it has to happen right now or never. It is not going as fast or easy as it did the first time. What more could we possibly try?