My dd was stillborn jan 2006.Id had 4 healthy pregnancies before but i still felt that hatred.I along with you all STILL feel it at times.Wondering why life is so unfair & when & what did i do to deserve losing my child.What made me the 1 who had to be punished.Then someone i know became pregnant not long after & she continued to smoke cigarettes among other things,drank alcohol..it pissed me off beyond words.How could someone LIKE HER be allowed to get pregnant & have a healthy baby girl but i couldnt.I never did drugs,never smoked or drank alcohol.I even cut way down on my caffeine intake yet I was the 1 punished.I had to lose my child while she acted like a completely stupid B ITCH & got to keep hers.How is that fair?Ya know.I just want to beat some sense into women I see who are pregnant & are doing things they shouldnt or those who have a child/children & they dont even want to give them the time of day.I guess if they havent had to go thru a loss like that,they dont realize how lucky & blessed they truly are.Big hugs to all of you who have had a loss/losses. |