Wow! Pardon my french, but what your Dad and step-Mom have done is f***d up! It sounds like you have been to hell and back again in your relationship with your father. I have been there too. My father is Bipolar and has a major gambling problem. He likes to blame everything on my Mom or me as nothing is ever his fault, even the situations he puts himself into. I have realized over time though that this is part of his disorder and that it is easier for him (and anyone for that matter) to blame others rather than themselves for their hardships. I know it is not easy, but I hope that you realize that nothing that your father does is your fault!!! Nothing!!! In the case of him not be allowed to see his grandkids, I think you should do what is best for your kids and your own sanity! If not seeing him is healthier than him being in your kids lives then you should follow your heart and your gut and go with you instinctive reaction which is to not let him see them. Good luck to you, you'll be in my prayers.
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Rachel N.
Diagnosed: 2/2009
Meds: Metformin & Seasonique
Supplements: Pre-natal Vitamin, Cenitol, Fish Oil
Married: June 16, 2007
Mother to: Zeus (2yr old Rottenshepherd), Victor & Ashley (9 & 7yr old Alley Cats) |