Hi ladies.
I'm Amber. I'm new to the site. This may be a long post and for that I apologize. Mike and I have been married for 6 years this November. In Nov. 2007, we got pregnant but miscarried on Dec. 26. That was one of the lowest points in my life. I was "estranged" from the church and had been for years and I just knew this was God's way of waking me up and wanting me to get right with Him again. But that took months and months for me to realize that. I kept hearing "God has a plan in all of this" but it at the time seemed like salt on an open wound. I've now come to realize that it WAS His plan after all.
I'm still not active in the church for a few reasons. 1. We're about to move and I don't want to get active in a church only to "abandon" them in 3 weeks, and 2. DH and I aren't on the same page about going to church.
He is a Christian and prays daily but was forced to go to church as a kid and went to a very very charismatic and hypocritical church and was told over and over again when he questioned things that he needed to have the "demons" cast out of him. So he has a real hard time relaxing or feeling accepted and truly at peace in church. He feels that he can speak to God anywhere and that God can speak to him anywhere and that he doesn't have to go to church just to be near God. I can agree with that to an extent. I mean, I've never been big on feeling obligated to attend ALL functions. I feel for me, Sunday service and maybe a women's Bible Study would be sufficient for me. But he would prefer to stay home and watch church on TV than to be there. I don't know how to help him with it.
Also, I've recently been feeling a pull to start reading the Bible but have no idea where to start. I was raised in a Christian home and attended Christian schools all my life. But for some reason, I feel like I'm starting from square one. That both worries me but also is a great feeling, having a feeling of a wiped clean slate...believe me, I needed it.
Thanks for having this thread.
Look forward to making some friends for life.
Peace be with you all!
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) & Mike: married since Nov. 1, 2003
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BFP: Nov 3, 2007
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MC: Dec. 26, 2007
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