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How do I do this? Honestly this is not a little peach fuzz. This is a full beard that I get. I made the mistake of shaving it at 17, and 12 years later I am horrified at what I see in the mirror. I have to shave every day. and I accidentally shaved off peach fuzz further down my kneck and now its really dark too. Sighhh

I am on disability, so electrolysis and laser is out of the question. Even waxing is more than I can afford. I guess Im just going to have to accept it, but I dont know how.... and the ironic thing is, if I didn't have this problem, but knew someone who did, I would tell them that appearances means jack and she should go outside more... I wouldnt care if someone else looked this way, but when it comes to myself, its really bothersome and I cant get passed it.

I barely go out side. I am so self conscious of my face and the stares are a lot to handle.
I am not exactly the friendliest person either. I guess I feel like people won't really like me because of this so I push them away. And what guy is going to date a girl with a beard? Seriously.

This kinda turned into a pity message. Sorry. I just needed to vent.

I guess this wouldnt be as bad if more people knew what PCOS is. Maybe they would be a little more understanding and not look at a woman with facial hair differently. Sometimes I wonder if people think Im actually a guy, trying to live as a girl! UGH. Sometimes I wish I was born with a boy, at least this wouldnt be an issue.