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I know deep in my heart I would feel the same about an adopted child as I would my own biological child. We need to figure out what's going to work best for us. I'm pretty sure I can cope with never having my own child (though it will still hurt), but I don't know if I can deal with never being a MOM. We need to figure things out. I've had the adoption paperwork sitting on the counter for a couple of months now. I just get overwhelmed when I look at everything. The agency we've been dealing with said that their adoptions are all open to some degree. My husband and I don't want an open adoption because we don't want to confuse the child or feel like we're simply raising someone else's child. Don't get me wrong, I do understand that they would be giving us the greatest gift in the world. I'm also surprised at the cost involved with it. We have a lot of decisions to make.

SheriKCMO: We named him Angel Christian. It seemed appropriate because it was Christmas time and we kept referring to the baby as, "Our little Angel". I was in my second trimester. My cervix didn't seem to be the problem. It was still completely closed. They had to induce labor. I was traumatized. I've never been one to let something take hold of me, but I'm paranoid of hospitals now. I mean TERRIFIED. I want to cry and hyperventilate when I walk in the door because I feel like nothing good ever happens to me when I'm there.

Thanks, Cysters.

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