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Tina Castle · 06-24-2009, 06:16 AM

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Originally Posted by Amavin

I got pinned down in the bathroom one day and my evil demon wench of a grandmother scrubbed my neck till i had no skin left...blood running down my back. She said that it was just so dirty it built it up (turns out its AN) so on top of the dark velvety skin, I have scarring on my neck. .

I thought I was the only who went through this horror! My AN (Ancanthosis Nigrosis) started when I was 11 and got progressively worse. It started on my chest between my cleavage and then by the time I was 13 it had gone up to my neck.

One weekend my looked at me very disgustedly and went into the bathroom and got a loofa that she had wet with water and soap and told me to take my shirt off. Keep in mind this was in front of my older sister.

For the next thirty minutes my mom scrubbed my chest and neck and kept sucking her teeth in and telling my sister how 'dirty' I was and that I never washed properly in those places and that's why my skin was patchy and dry. I can still hear her, "see, see look at that the dirt just comes right off. She's not trying to get rid of it. See, see..."

My sister looked sorry for me and commented on how she would get the same thing when she was pregnant, but certainly I wasn't. That was yet another embarrassing speculation at my expense.

I'm sorry you had to go through that. It's humiliating.

Also the "you'd be so beautiful if you were skinny" comment has haunted me my entire life. Specifically coming from my mom.