 Can't handle it anymore
Hey, I'm Sammy, and I was diagnosed with PCOS about 6 months ago, but have been experiencing symtoms for a few years before that. Recently it's been my mood thats been affected. I'm horribly irritable, and the person thats mostly on the receiving end of this is my boyfriend. He tries his hardest, love him, but he struggles to cope with my awful temper, and sometimes tells me he cant cope with me anymore, and that's when it all kicks off. It's like I see red, and thats it. I cry like I don't know what, to the point I'm struggling to breathe, I can't see any point in my life anymore and wish I was dead, I get uncontrollably angry, and more than anything I hate myself. Don't get me wrong, right now I don't feel like I'd die without my boyfriend, its just when I have these mad episodes that I can't think of anything other than the fact I need him, and I don't know what I'd do without him. The rest of the time I'm pretty normal, though I get down every now and again, and I find it harder to be happy about things. Is this normal for PCOS sufferers or is there something wrong with me? I can be horrible, and I don't know why. At the time it's like I can't see any other opinion but mine, and there's no telling me until I've calmed down. I don't blame my boyfriend for not wanting to be with me anymore! Just wondered if anyone else has gone through this and knows of a way to stop the mentalness?! xx |