I'm sorry divorces are hard, if you need to talk or vent just pm me. I went through one about 2 years ago, and even though it was the BEST move i've ever made, it still was very very hard. I was fortunate not to have children though, it speeds things up and makes things easier.
One thing you said did alarm me. I'm kind of the family's black sheep too, but honey just because they have issues with there concept of who you are, don't let that make you feel like the only worth you have is making grandbabies for them. You are an individual capable of so much more than just spitting out babies, and if they don't see that, don't beat yourself up for it. If you can't have another baby, you can always adopt, or foster, i know it's not the same as being pregnant, but don't feel like you don't have options. At least you already have a beautiful son who loves you
