Thanks for the support, fruitpop and faith4miracle. I truly appreciate it! It helps to know that I'm not alone with my frustrations and experiences. Only a cyster could understand how I feel. No one else seems to understand my frustration with not having periods and how my body's failure to function makes me feel emotionally.
Speaking of my body functioning, I am pleased to report that I officially got my period in its entirety today. I am so relieved! Even though I am tired and have been cramping a lot, I do not regret using NPC to induce this cycle. My period is now very heavy and the cramps have been pretty painful today, but I can only imagine how awful things might have been had I allowed any more time to pass without having a period. Yes, I would have preferred to have gotten my period on my own without having to use NPC. I'm sure it would have happened eventually, but it probably would have taken months to finally happen. Enduring more stress associated with worrying and constantly being upset about my body not working right just wasn't worth it to me at this time just to say things happened 100% naturally on their own. NPC may not always work exactly when I want it to, but at least it finally worked now. I am just happy to have started this period so I can get it over with and move on.
Part of me wants to try to get my period 100% naturally next month, but I am going to use NPC again. I have never used NPC on a regular basis. I am interested to see if using it for three or four cycles would help my body balance itself out so I don't need the cream in the future. I don't feel comfortable depending on NPC to menstruate. That's why I was so reluctant to give in and use it to induce my current cycle. I don't want to nor do I plan to use it forever. I hope someday not to need it. My body has always been unreliable when it comes to periods, but things have gone from bad to worse in terms of my scarce cycles in recent years. I'm sure that weight and stress have played a role in that.
I plan to couple my NPC efforts with healthier eating and trips to the gym. My eating today was far from healthy. I had way too much chocolate and garbage. Yes, I finally have my period, but that wasn't the best excuse to use to eat the junk I did in the quantities I ate it. Not that I need my period to make an excuse to eat poorly....*LOL* I don't have a period too often, but that hasn't stopped me from eating junk food! What's done is done though. Tomorrow is a new day!
