Originally Posted by madamebovary

I'm so upset with my skin that I now breakdown at least once a day, sometimes as much as 3 times. I just started Metformin and Loestrin24Fe and I don't know if the BCP made me break out initially but I now have way more cysts than when I started! I hate this horrible disorder and feel as if it has truly ruined my life. I've tried almost everything for my acne cysts to no avail-- Tazorac gave me horrible icepick scarring, prolonged antibiotic use ( almost 5 years) gave me chronic yeast infections that eventually resulted in permanent tearing of my labia (and makes sex much more painful and awkward than it used to be) as well as countless creams, TCA peels, microderm...you name it. Nothing works. I've only been on the BCP and Met a week now but I have no hope. I don't want to take Accutane and I hear it doesn't even help for those with PCOS so why bother? I hate to sound vain but I actually have a very pretty face...stunning, actually...except not anymore. I feel hideous and though people tell me it's "not that bad" I feel like the quality of my life has been diminished so much, which makes me soo soo angry. Even when the cysts do clear up and I have a week of decent-looking skin I still have these disgusting scars to live with that makeup only accentuates yet I still feel the need to wear for my own security. I don't really know what to do anymore and I don't think I can go on like this much longer. I try to be happy and content but I really can't when I think of everything PCOS has cost me. Also, I've started getting more "peach fuzz" on my face and breasts (not just around the nipple but everywhere on my breast) and while the hair is not coarse or dark it is still a noticeable difference. However, my OB-GYN just told me that it's "normal" and she gets hair around her nipples too. Yeah...ok. Great. Except mine is NOT normal. I've also suffered from HS on my pubic area (mostly on the mound and in the "creases" between the thighs) and let me tell you--THAT has just done wonders for my confidence in bed. Honestly I hate my life and I'd prefer to die however I could never kill myself so I just wish a semi would hit me most days. Sorry if this seems so long and pointless..I just need to let it out because I'm pretty sure NOBODY I know has even the slightest clue about what I've gone/and going through and any kind of support would be refreshing.