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csunshineq · 02-23-2005, 09:53 PM

I have had problems with deppresion on an off most of my life, . I have had treatment even so far as that I majored in psychology and worked in mental health for several years. But right now I just feel like I am so over whelmed all I can do is cry....ok i just finshed a round of provera and I know that is part of it but I have had this mood for months.
My husband is disabled and has been unable to work and confined to be for almsot a year.
My mother in law was just diagnosed with Alzheimers and I am either going to have to move several states away or have her move here...she has never liked me so this is really stressing me.
I have lost 100lbs but can't seem to lose any more and I really need to. All of which I might could handle but then there is the PCOS.
my best friend from childhood who got married a week before just had her second child...all my friends from high school have kids and always ask why I haven't and my 10 year reunion is in a few months.
my cousin just delivered twins and I am suppose to go to a shower this weekend..ever where I turn there is baby stuff...I want to scream I can't even get my body to have normal period must less ever get pregnant.
THEN I HAVE GO SPEND AN HOUR waxing and plucking because i can grow a beard!!!!!!!!! UGH
I am sorry i just feel like nobody gets it. i don't know if it is just the life stress , the pcos and baby issues or what but my husband keeps telling me I am never happy...which makes me feel guilty am I alone with this stuff or is it something else that is normal for women with pcos

hopeless · 02-24-2005, 02:34 AM

You're definetly not alone. One of my ex-boyfriends told me that I couldn't "deal with life". Sometimes it's all overwhelming. Everything seems to happen at once, and I feel like I'm drowning in it all.

The universe won't throw you anything that you can't handle. Sometimes it just takes time to figure out your way of handling these things...but keep at it. You'll get there. Have you talked to your husband about your depression?

Congrats on losing 100lbs!

Jmacfeely · 02-24-2005, 05:40 AM

Hi there,

I have only one thing to say. Someway, somehow you need a couple hours for you to do whatever you love. You need it and deserve it!!!

I know (trust me) that everything hits and once and will just bowl you over. It will be okay. Can take time though. I understand the life long depression and the baby issues. Do not feel ashamed to say to friends and family...Hey, I have a real medical issue and I need you to let me be.

You need to talk the chatroom is open all the time. I work midnights and I'm always checking in. Am a great listener and cheer-er-up-er.

VivC · 02-24-2005, 07:02 PM

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. My Dad was disabled, and I remember how hard it was for my Mom to keep it all together.

As far as your MIL, does she have to come live with you? Since she doesn't like you, I'm worried she might be mean and add to your load! Is there a home she can go to, or another sibling who can take her? You've already got so much on your plate, dealing with your hubby, and I don't want you to collapse under the pressure!

I think losing 100 lbs is incredible! Every pound lost makes us that much healthier. Are you on Metformin, and which diets have you used?

I understand the desire for kids. All of my friends have babies, I've been pregnant once, and he died (in October '04). If you can't handle being around your cousin for the baby shower, then don't go. Something tells me you're a "people pleaser." I've been there, and sometimes you need to worry about yourself first.

I hate waxing and plucking, too. It takes forever and it seems to be a constant process! I grow a better beard than my brother!

And it's normal to feel this way, especially with so much going on! You have the normal life issues to deal with, in addition to your medical issues. Being overwhelmed is understandable!

Now go do something for yourself, and don't make any excuses!

csunshineq · 02-25-2005, 01:49 PM

Thanks Viv.
I am sorry to hear about the loss of your son.
I do have a sister in law but she is an alcholic, has many step children and a step grandchild living with her so she won't help with mother in law until she " doesn't know anyting". We could put her in a nursing home, but she is so afraid of that I hate to do it to her, she is beyond understand what is best for her. She is all the family my husband has we found his birth mother last year and she had passed away, his son from his first marriage past away in 96, so taking care of his mom is important to him.
Your right I will try to take some more time for me it will all work out some how. Thanks for the reply ((hugs)) Karen

oh I have been given met...but didn't stay on it due to the cost of it and side effects plus I seemed to be gaining weight on it. I lost the weight with the calorie counting.