3rd pregnancy and 3rd loss

shandris · 10-23-2009, 12:10 AM

When is enough, enough? I mean really...multiple loss is the pits and not knowing or understanding why is even worse.
I didn't even think I was pregnant this time...all of the hpt's were negative. i went in for blood work and before they called with the results AF started. I left a message for the nurse asking if we need to wait another month before trying again...she called back in a panic cause my blood work came back positive. I have been bleeding like crazy so there is no hope. I go back tomorrow to check if the levels are rising or falling. i was using follistim and had 1 really good follie and 3 within range...4 follies and I am still m/c'ing. WTH?!? This is incredibly unfair. I am so mad and upset I feel numb. what now? what do you do with the pain and frustration and irritation and anger. a part of me just wants to give up and say forget it...but i can't.

sorry, just needed to vent

snfr02chic · 10-23-2009, 05:49 AM

Shandris I am so so so sorry! I know that doesn't help. I just went through my first and I know how hard that was. I don't have any answers for you, God only knows why this has happened. All I wanted to say is that I'm praying, really really praying, and praying hard for you. We don't know each other, but if you ever need anyone to vent to or just talk with I'll listen, I can laugh with you and be a shoulder if you need to cry. Again, I am so sorry for your losses, it's horrible. I wish something could be done to make it better. Try to keep your chin up. It will take a while, but you will get through this.

Anonykat · 10-23-2009, 11:46 AM

I'm so sorry.

What a heartbreak.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

JustinsMama · 10-23-2009, 11:47 AM

I'm so sorry you are going through this, multiple losses are awful!!! Have you had any recurrent pregnancy loss testing? If not, it might be a good idea. ((hugs))

shandris · 10-23-2009, 02:33 PM

Thank you all so very much for replying. I feel as though I am in a fog right now. But I am holding it together.

I haven't had any testing done...only because I never thought I would be at this crossroads. I am waiting for the nurse to call back with my HCG level, my doc wants it down under 5 before trying again. We will meet for an office visit and I will bring up testing with him. I am starting to wonder if it is an 'environment' issue now.

Is ther specific testing should I ask about? I'll perform a quick search on the board, but if you all can think of anything specific I would greatly appreciate it.

snfr02chic I pm'd you

dollface1982 · 11-11-2009, 11:52 AM

I'm sorry that you're going through this. It is heartbreaking because I just had a 17 weeks miscarriage two weeks ago. I have no answers for it at all. I'm so afraid of not getting pregnant again because I don't ovulate regularly. I saw that you had a 17+ weeks miscarriage as well and my heart dropped because that is so devastating to carry around your baby for so long and then out of nowhere, they are gone. I can only wish the best for you as I am trying to find out what's going on with me as well. I hope you find some answers soon.

pinkkitty · 11-18-2009, 03:29 AM

I have been undergoing testing, because i apparently shouldn't have lost the last baby. Some things my OB/GYN is doing is...
- Thrombophilia screen (blood test for clotting disorders)
- Thyroid check
- Check for diabetes
- DNA test husband
- Get blood type checked (looking for resus negative disorder - neg mum/ pos dad)
- Chromosone test the baby i lost
- Hysteroscopy / laproscopy to get a look at the "environment".

I've had some of the above done and none have given any answers yet. its a weird thing to actually want something wrong with you.

dollface1982 · 11-18-2009, 12:00 PM

Pinkkitty- I understand completely. I am feeling the same way. Losing a baby is the worst thing ever and especially when you have no answers. A 17 weeks lost for me halfways distroyed me. Now I'm waiting to go to the doctor so they can tell me what's next. I'm hoping they do some tests on me as well. All I could think about is I hope they CAN find something wrong with me so I can atleast know what took my son away from me. I want to know so I can try and get treatment for it. I just want so bad to be a mommy and it seems so far-fetched now.

mommy-of-my-angelbaby · 11-19-2009, 07:04 PM

Shandris, I am so sorry, I can't even fathom what it must feel like to miscarry multiples and not know the reason why. I have only miscarried the one time, and it has been so hard, I can't imagine going through it again. {{HUGS}}