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CaraMia886 · 10-18-2005, 11:55 PM

I guess my personal dream is just to get through the rest of college without feeling tired, or fat, or just plain moody. And then when I'm done, I want a half-way decent job in my field, I want to be happily married, and just have a few kids, without having to spend tens of thousands of dollars on IVF.

Is it really so much to ask?

I used to dream of being an actress and going to live in some beautiful mansion in another country. I'd wear the big Jackie-o sunglasses, and sign autographs, and say, 'No pictures, please!'

I'd be in some legenday movie that's right up there with Casablanca, and Pretty Woman, and Gone with the Wind... I wanted to be that girl, and maybe not necessarily your Jessica Simpson, or your Cindy Crawford.

I wanted to be a Meryl Streep, a Kate Hepburn, an Audrey Hepburn, or even a Julia Roberts. I wanted to be different.

That all changed when my first real director told me I'd be great if I could take off 10 lbs. And then I couldn't. In fact, I gained weight trying. Other girls my age could yo-yo up and down the scales. I couldn't do that. Similarly, I was out of comission about 10 days a month with my period, and when I didn't have it I had these mysterious pains in my abdomen which people told me was 'in my imagination.' I have to tell you, the slight strange hair growth and eventual loss of my period weren't attractive either. Or the fact that I still can't get a good night's sleep.

I know it was partly me that gave up the dream, and now I have to live life realistically. I'm already on the way there- I'm halfway thru college, I have an incredible supportive amazing boyfriend, and I'm working so I have some cash. I just don't want this diesease to hold back anymore Kates, Audreys or Julias.

Ladies, let's do something about this! Let's make ourselves heard!

nicole47 · 10-19-2005, 12:15 AM

Sounds like you're well on your way to meeting your personal goals! I can't guarantee the tired or moodiness though-- I think we all feel like that from time to time, especially if we are tired! Can't guarantee the no IVF payment either unless you move states.

But the husband, career, kids... you're getting there and you'll make it!

As for actresses having to be thin... well, there are rosie o'donnels (sp?) out there and oprahs, but not as many as there should be. I'm not sure that being a famous actress is such a great career though... there's so much pressure (and not all of it is weight, though that's certainly a big part) and so much publicity that a lot of them don't seem to be so happy where they are having achieved fame and fortune.

Best of luck!

CaraMia886 · 10-19-2005, 04:19 PM

aw, thanks. I'm hoping I am well on the way, and fame seems a little less appealing, esp watching what actresses such as Jennifer Aniston and Jessica Simpson have had to go thru recently, but i wanted to keep it private, a lot of them go looking for some of the publicity to begin with.