OK, so here I am in the middle of the night... completely unable to sleep once again. The last time I had this sort of insomnia, I was pr! I think it's the adoption. My mind just races with thoughts of how all of this will happen (fears of what might go wrong) and the excitement of how life will be changing (for the better, of course!) I can hardly think of anything else these days.... :o Anyone else feel like this? I can almost feel the "nesting" instinct setting in too.
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I've been there (the adoption part, not the pg part). I can totally understand your feelings. I did all the nesting and everything that you're talking about. I also had the sleepless nights where I went from so excited, to complete worry, and back again. It is certainly a roller coaster ride both emotionally and physically, but the reward at the end is so great.
Hang in there, once your child is home, it will have been all worth it.
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Big (((hugs))) to you Louie!! I have missed you!!!
I too just seem to lurk more these days.
I haven't reached the point where I wake up worrying about the adoption. I just feel overwhelmed by paperwork. Less so since I sat down yesterday and made a bunch of phone calls. We're working on our dossier for China and it's like we need to do Item C, but we can't do it until we do A and B. My goal this week is to get clearance letters from the local police.
I had more of the "excitement that wakes you up" when we first settled on China. We went to Disneyland to get away before my surgery and kept seeing all these families with itty bitty Chinese girls and non-Chinese parents. They all looked so happy!! It made it seem real.
I am glad that someone else feels the same way... I have made that comment to my DH, but to no one else because I was afraid they would think I'm crazy!
And I totally agree about waking in the middle of the night... heck not even going to sleep... just laying there thinking about all the stuff I need to do to get ready, the stuff that I want to do once my little ones come home... and what kind of journey we are in for.
I'm so glad to hear that I'm not alone in this!
Hang in there, and keep us posted on how it goes!
__________________ Stephanie
30 years old/ DH 27 -- Married 12/16/2000
Dx PCOS 09/2000 - Janumet 50/50
And 3 sons thru the MIRACLE of Adoption
Austin (7), Andrew (8), Anthony (9)
I was right there with you...I would wake up in the middle of the nite and go sit in the rocking chair in the babys room...and just sit there in the dark and wonder...imagine holding my baby in my arms...
You are definetly NOT alone
I can't wait for our next adoption so I can get that feeling again !
LOL
{{ hugs }}
Amy
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Yes, I totally agree. I think it was that same feeling that released some hormone or chemical in my brain/body that allowed me to get pg during the adoption process. You are not alone.
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What were we thinking?!
Yup, been there, done that! In fact I got so excited and hyper that I insisted we fix up the nursery before we even met our social worker for the homestudy!
I still have that excitement at times. And I do obsess about our baby boy. But now, depression hits at times, too. Worry that we'll be able to make it on one income. Worry that he may have some hidden developmental delays or silent disabilities. And frankly, worry that he may not be as cute as I imagine him to be (or become)...so the last worry is shallow, I admit, but at least I'm honest. And all that worry and fear breeds depression and anxiety. I don't like it one bit, but I suppose it's normal. Gosh, I hope it is! hehe
We are 99.9% done with our dossier. Just need the 171-H from INS, then get all this stuff apostilled. Our agency has made an exception so we can turn our dossier in without the INS clearance, but we want to meet with our caseworker to make sure we have everything else done right before we submit it for apostillation.
Then the real wait begins. Cept my head and heart don't quite realize we haven't even started yet! It's like I expect to get a call in a week! haha
Our agency calls this paperchase and waiting our paper pregnancy. Gosh, that's pretty darn appropriate cept this is gonna probably take more than nine months! LOL
You're gonna feel some pretty weird emotions, besides the hyper-excitement. My mind hasn't stopped racing yet. Kinda doubt it ever will.
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No more treatment after 2.5yrs treatment and 3 mc's
Oh my, I am posting at 3:26 AM, so yes, I cant sleep. Wake up thinking abou the kids. One night I woke up afraid that I forgot to put a pull up on the 3 year old and realized that they werent here. (we have them for weekends right now) isnt that strange?
Adoption process a lot like being pr! 
I can totally understand your feelings. I did all the nesting and everything that you're talking about. I also had the sleepless nights where I went from so excited, to complete worry, and back again. It is certainly a roller coaster ride both emotionally and physically, but the reward at the end is so great.
