i just went to the obgyn today because i've been hurting really bad where my overies are and all he did was give me some prevera to make me start and then my bcps again because i haven't been taking them. i asked him to take my overies out because i'm just tired of them you know and he told me no grrrr just for once i was something to go my way for once. he told me to start a diet like the south beach diet and stuff he really wasn't any help to me. on top of everything else i gained all my weight back and me and my girl isn't helping me she tried to brake up with me the other day because she is to stressed that she can't handle us being together right now and that she would rather lose me now than later i was like WTF isn't that up to me if i am going to leave you not the other way around.. AHHHH WOMEN can't live with them can't live with out them. i think it would help if she was here oh well thats my rant and rave for the day i'll talk to you guys later
Michelle- sorry to hear that you are having trouble with your doctor and with your girl. I use to be like your girl, I'll break up with you before you break up with me. I use to do it because I didn't want to get hurt. I hope you guys can work through this. Let me know how things are going.
Talk to you soon,
Mel
__________________ The Journey of 1000 Miles Begins With a Single Step.
well things are basicly over between me and her after she told me that she wanted to brake up with me to test my love (that was after i wrote my post) i just feel like its not ment to be and so i gave up we are still together but it wont be long till i call the quits i don't need this in my life with everything else thats going on with me at this time. i need someone that is going to believe in me and have faith in me not doubt my every move. i'm not even alowed to have friends when i talk to them or when one of them calls while we are on the phone and needs to talk to me because something is up and needs someone to listen to them and i'm the only person they trust she gets all mad or depressed and throws a fit or starts to cry uncontrolablely to where i feel bad its almost as if shes trying to minapulat me into doing things her way or no way at all. i can't deal with that right now not with my pancreas and stuff i get enough crap from my family.
thanks for wrighting back and wanting to know what is happening in my life.
Michelle I agree its no fun begin with someone who plays mind games with you. It's hard and you don't deserve that. She shouldn't control you like the way she does. Hopefully she will change, if not you don't need an unhealthy relationship in your life on top of everything else.
Take care and stay safe,
Mel
__________________ The Journey of 1000 Miles Begins With a Single Step.
well we finally called it off she started cutting and burning herself again and i tryed to help her but i just couldn't she needs to see someone for it. i just couldn't stay with her because of the mind games and it was bringing me down and i couldn't deal with that now that i'm in school. so now i'm looking for someone that will treat me like i should be treated which is going to be hard to do because of where i live. other than that i'm doing good i'm making great grades in school and start clinicals tomorrow and i'm looking forword to it. but i just wanted to let you know how things are going thanks for listening
Hi Michelle, just wanted to check in with you and see how you are doing? How are classes going? I go back to work on Tuesday.I am looking forward to it. How have things been going in your love life?
Talk to you soon,
Mel
__________________ The Journey of 1000 Miles Begins With a Single Step.
hey there i'm ok i guess i was in a reck on wensday and i'm pretty banged up. it was also the same day that i got done with glasses i graduated with a 96 woohoo. as for my love life i'm looking for a good woman that will love me for me and will treat me right and in texas lol. no more of these out of staters for me. i'm hoping to find one pretty soon. i'm trying to find a job but with my sholder like it is its going to be hard but the guy who hits me insurance said that they will componsate me for it. so thats my life as for right now i hope to hear from you soon and please tell me how things are going with you.
Hey michelle. sorry to hear about your girl. if she is cutting or burning she does need help bad. and you don't need that. you can't rescue everyone. I hope things get better. Hope to see you on messenger!! Love Holly
__________________ Run mad as often as you choose, but do not faint. Jane austen
Hey michelle, I agree with bazsmommy on that... that just plain isn't healthy. *gives big, giant hug, which is kind of hard since it's a little short un-lady here* AAAAAAAAAnyways you go find yourself a nice woman who loves you lots and lots!
__________________ To be nobody but yourself in a world that is doing its best to make you somebody else is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.
well ladies i just thought i would write and let you all know that i'm alive i guess been taking care of my little cuz thats like my son he is moving to oklahoma this weekend and i'm not liking it and it doesn't help that AF hit me this week. theres been so much going on in my life and no one to turn to and no one to hold me. i found out that my grandfarther has cancer but he is doing well and responding to treatment which is a blessing i'm not as close to him as i could be but i don't need to lose him anytime soon not when my grandmother on my dads sice died 16 yrs ago on halloween. but for the most part i'm doing well healing up from my wreck and everything that in its self was an event because now i got my new truck but it has no ac and is acting up go fig huh? but soon it will be the pimpet ride lol no really i'm just playing i'm not a pimp or anything just hoping to pick up a wonderful woman that can help me though everything i'm going through right now. well i just wanted to let yall know what was going on and to say thanks to all of yall that respond to me.
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