**all i want to do is cry**

jklindsey · 08-31-2007, 01:13 PM

i was diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. i never really did any treatment for it then. my husband and i have decided to try to start our family. i went back to my dr and she requested all of these blood tests, referred me to an obgyn which referred me to an endocrinoligist which put me on all sorts of meds and more blood tests. all of the meds make me sick and i just hate the fact that i have to play this waiting game. i have friends that are having babies and i just love it! then i see women who honestly don't deserve to have children or don't want children and getting pg if you look at them sideways....why? it just doesn't seem fair. everytime i leave the drs office i cry--i have to wait another 3 months before my next appt....why can't i get pg like most other women......

i have noticed lately that i seem more depressed than ever-my friends and co workers have noticed it and so has my husband. he is trying to understand--knowing that he never will.

ok-sorry for the venting.....thanks ladies!

Bellabear · 08-31-2007, 02:58 PM

(((HUGS)))

TTC does suck! It took me 4 years to have my DD. I was like you ..every med they gave me made me so sick. It took me forever to get over the s/e of MET. I have to tell you that its not easy..its hard and some days it will be so bad you will feel its not worth it. But you have to keep positive..it sounds like you are on the right track. Most women won't even take the steps you have. I have no idea why some women get PG so easy..most of the time they don't even want the babies. I got some great advice from another cyster. Wake up everyday and say to yourself..I'm one day closer to being a mother. One way or other you will be..even if you have to adopt. When you feel like crying ..cry and get it out but just keeps saying its going to happen. HTH

Take care and lots of babydust your way~

brener · 09-01-2007, 09:35 AM

babydust to you all...
I totally understand this too... recently I am taking the announcements of family and friends being preg.. before I had a m/c it didnt bother me even though I was trying... Now its just so painful and I wonder will I ever see the positive preg results again?

sunshine071899 · 09-05-2007, 09:35 PM

TTC is the most stressful thing. We must learn patience and to relax. The two most hardest lessons for me to learn. I didn't have to wait long to concieve like you, but I did lose my son and am currently waiting for AF so we can try again. The situation are not the same but I do know what it's like to be surrounded by babies and pg women. That urge to be a mom is so strong and the desire is so much more. When you do finally get pg and have that screaming baby in 9 months it will be that much more worth it. Just relax. Stress makes it that much harder. I am here for you. Please vent whenever you want. We don't mind.

Laura