Am I alone?

PrincessJilly · 02-12-2004, 05:27 AM

Hey ladies,
Today has been one of those days, we all have them, were there doesn't seem to be any bright spots. I wasn't able to go to school today, which is bad cause its midterm time. But I guess I will work it out.
I have been sooo moody, and don't want to do anything but sleep and cry. I was just diagnosed, a few weeks ago with PCOS, and this is all new. I have fought depression for a few years now, but this is more severe than ever. Anywho.. just wanted to let ya all know...
All around me, I always have to put on a happy face, and pretend everything is alright. I am always the Happy joyful one. I just couldn't face anyone cause that happiness would have been a lie.
Does it get better again? I don't really wanna go on meds. I was on meds for depression, when I was young, and It made me gain 20 pounds something I can't do, cause I am in my friend's wedding in about a month, and I can barely fit into the dress that when I bought it 3 months ago fit perfectly. I am sure others can relate. Just had to blab, Please let me know that I am not all alone. No one seems to understand. Sorry if this doesn't make sense. I am frustrated, and deeply saddened, and still have 2 midterms this week.

-Jill

sunnieflower · 02-12-2004, 01:13 PM

Y ou're not alone. I've had days where DH has had to drag me outta bed and get me in the shower and off to work where I am a useless Zombie. I am on meds now because it was getting bad. I am heavy already. I'm trying to excercise cause it's supposed to help fight depression (endorphins).

Lendi · 02-12-2004, 10:34 PM

No you're not alone...but it sure feels lonely sometimes doesn't it. Did you only try one med? There are other types, some that don't have weight gain as a side effect. I know Welburtin is one of them. Try to exercise a bit. That will help the depression and also help that dress fit you beautifully. Good luck on you mid terms. They cause plenty of stress on their own. Munch on veggies to help you through the studying. And, remember...you are not alone. We are here.

Lendi

Saza · 02-13-2004, 12:54 PM

Oh Jilly you not alone
Im there in exacly the same place and I feel alone too
I was told i got PCOS last month
DH and I have been trying for babbie for a year
and if it wasnt for that I would never have known I got it
See, it the UK they dont realy treat it only the fertility side of things
humph oh well back to life
its a full time job

ANGELISSA · 02-13-2004, 09:09 PM

Hi Jill,

I have been where you are so many times. Sometimes it feels like you have nowhere to turn and dont know what to do. I'm here to tell you that things will get better for you. PCOS can be hard to deal with, but you have lots of support and friends here that can cheer you up and support you along the way.

I have about 140 lbs to lose and I also feel overwhelmed....but you know what Ive realised in the last week? That I dont have to do this alone. There are so many nice people here at soulcysters who have encouraged me and believed in me and you will find the same.

Just try and concentrate on your exams for now...and remember we all understand how you feel and are here for you.

Lissa