I feel sad. Sad because I've been off the pill for more than a month and AF has not shown up. Sad because I haven't ovulated on my own in five years. Sad because the doctoors gave me hope, saying that the best time to conceive would be right after I came off the pill because my cycles would be regular. sad because I am 24 years old and already know that I will most probably face years of infertility. Sad because I have already been told that I can not conceive without medical intervention. Sad because all I want is to be a mother, and my husband doesn't understand my yearning. Sad because he doesn't understand my overwhelming fear that it will take years to conceive....if ever. He doesn't understand why I want to start trying now. He thinks we shouldn't on the off chance that we conceive right away. I don't ovulate!!!! Sad because nobody I know has experienced the pain of weight gain, acne, infertility, self loathing and uncertainty. I don't know if I can even explain why I am so sad, I just know that it's a sadness that is siting in the pit of my stomach and making me think about doing things that I haven't needed to do in years. Self destructive things. I think I am crazy. I just need someone to talk to who understands my sadness.
__________________ Me - Julie 26 DH - Cory 25
Married August 24, 2002
Anovulatory, acne and weight gain since 1999
Dx PCOS March 2003
TTC #1 since January 2004
Dx MFI September 2004 - non-obstructive azoospermia (zero sperm)
1700mg Metformin
150mg Effexor XR
Prenatal vitamins
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Sad because nobody I know has experienced the pain of weight gain, acne, infertility, self loathing and uncertainty.
well there are thousands of women on this site who understand and we will be here for you through every step of your TTC journey. One thing I do want to make clear is that your husband will not be able to understand your desire to be a mother, most men cannot...it's a women's need and men are well...different then us..
I may not have said the magic answer, but I want you to know that we are here to listen when you want to talk. Let us know how you are doing.
__________________ Me 35, DH 52. DSS 22, DD 15
150mg of Effexor
Hysterectomy on Jan 17, 2006
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I can not give you any advice that Santa's baby didn't but did want you to know I "listened". My heart hurts for you. I'm glad that you feel comfortable posting your feelings here. I hope maybe that gave you a little bit of stress relief. Lendi
__________________ It's ok to cry if you're sad. Tears are God's little safety valve.
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Thanks for listening. I guess I just need a shoulder to cry on. The reality of my situation just seems to be surfacing now. It has been masked since my diagnosis because my doctor put me on the pill right away. Now, I'm seeing reality as it was before. Without the pill, I don't have regular cycles. I don't ovulate. I am infertile. Just saying it makes me feel so empty. Like a part of me has died.
__________________ Me - Julie 26 DH - Cory 25
Married August 24, 2002
Anovulatory, acne and weight gain since 1999
Dx PCOS March 2003
TTC #1 since January 2004
Dx MFI September 2004 - non-obstructive azoospermia (zero sperm)
1700mg Metformin
150mg Effexor XR
Prenatal vitamins
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Am I crazy? 
