Am I just numb?

airforcewifeynva · 05-18-2004, 06:43 PM

I am here yet again. I am going through my 3rd miscarriage and the loss of my 4th child. I didn't know I was pregnant, and DH and I weren't TTC but that doesn't make me feel any better. I cried so much during my last m/c but this time, I just feel numb. I feel like since I have a child now, I am not supposed to be upset. I am not supposed to be upset because we didn't want to get pg right now. It does hurt though, it does make me sad. DH is not dealing with this well because we lost another baby and plus he is out of town and cannot be with me....just like last time.

I can get pregnant....I just can't keep the baby. I hope to find a dr. in GA who can get to the bottom of this. I can't keep dealing with these miscarriages. I feel so blessed to have Ben, yet so sad that I lost another baby.

I would ask why it happens....but I have been asking that for years...especially when I lost Dallas and still haven't gotten the answers.

It just really hurts.

Thanks for listening.

AndreaC · 05-18-2004, 08:13 PM

Hi,

I'm so sorry for your losses and wish there was something I could say to make you feel better.

I did want you to know though that just because you have a son and weren't actually 'trying', this does not mean that you have no right to feel the loss of your child.

I felt the same when I had a m/c a few weeks ago. I have a gorgeous, healthy son who is 2 years old and I thought that maybe I didn't deserve anymore and that is why it happened. I also thought I ought to just be happy with my 'lot'. But I wanted that child for myself, my dh, my son and itself. Nobody told me I had no right to extend the family I have and that is what I want to do.

You have every right to be feeling the way you do, you still lost a child no matter what the circumstances, We understand totally. I just hope that you get some answers soon as to why this keeps on happening.

Best wishes.

Andrea.

lots_of_dots · 05-19-2004, 01:45 AM

((((big hugs Jessica))))

I was hoping when I answered your post last night that you were just having a weird AF. I am so sorry for your loss. Even though you have a beautiful baby, it doesn't change the fact that you lost a child. I pray god will give you the strength to get through this hard time.

((((more big hugs))))

Stephanie

kwannabee · 05-19-2004, 09:54 AM

I just wanted to say how sorry i am...when i see names on this thread when i'm used to seeing them other places it makes me so sad...

just sending you hugs...take care, okay?

sparrow · 06-02-2004, 07:53 PM

Just because you have a healthy, beautiful son doesn't mean that you can't grieve the loss of another child. You have every right to grieve your loss, whether or not you were expecting it. I am so sorry for your loss and I hope that time will ease your pain, though you will of course never forget.

I grieved differently with each of my m/c. Whether you cry, or just feel numb, you are still mourning the loss.

April_Bee · 06-11-2004, 05:31 AM

I'm sorry for your loss. You have every right to fully grieve over this child, no matter what the circumstances were. You have been through so much, I'm praying for God to give you strength during this difficult time. ((((((sending big hugs))))))