Am I nuts?

lulu22 · 08-23-2007, 12:30 AM

Jeez, I feel like I've posted 100 times today- but it's such a comfort to come here and read the posts and know I'm not alone.

Okay- quick question: Does having PCOS feel a lot worse to you than people (dr.'s mostly) say it should?

I feel like my world is just falling in around me over the PCOS. I'm in pain almost all the time, I don't ovulate, was at least having withdrawl periods, now I'm on the pill and I'm not getting any period at all(!), I'm depressed, have no libido, heart rate and blood pressure problems, major limb swelling, and have gained 50 pounds in the last 9 months! And this all happened overnight- I felt fine one day- and woke up the next day and it was like everything had changed. It hurts to sit at work all day, it hurts to exersize, I'm never comfortable in myself anymore. My body reacts so differently to things now, I feel like I don't even know it anymore- I just want my old body back...

It makes me wish I could take a life time-out and take some time to do what I need to do to get things back on track again. If there was such a thing as a life time-out...

And everyone keeps treating me like it shouldn't be this bad-it's just ovarian cysts, everyone has problems of some sort. But it is this bad...to me.
I feel traumatized. :-/

Anyone else feel the same?

lulu

Navi · 08-23-2007, 12:39 AM

I certainly feel like it. I try to console myself with the knowledge that at least I don't have cancer, or some other serious chronic disease, but it's still hard not to feel disappointed. It's not normal to have pelvic pain or constant fatigue (my two biggest issues right now) so I know I have some small right to feel bad! Some days I just feel plain sick from everything and I give myself time to feel like I do have a legitimate problem, regardless of what other people say.

Yes, it could be a lot worse. But it could be better, too.

Sometimes people just need to realize that even the littlest illnesses can get in the way of life.

Everyone has some kind of obstacle in life, whether it's big or small, and they have every right to feel bad about it! (Though you can't let feeling bad get in the way of trying to change things, of course...)

mla06 · 08-23-2007, 04:04 AM

I certainly have those days or even moments within a day. We all have ups & downs, just for different reasons. Know that you are not alone and that all of your feelings are valid, don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise.